It's june already?

Time's moving too damn fast.

Need.to.slow.down.

Major decisions got to be made soon.. to have or not to have? To change or not to change?

Sigh. Hate losing sleep thinking about such things. :/

Frustrated

Noticed I don't have any positive things to post these days. But sad to say, it's a fact that I have nothing happy to post these days.

How to when he starts comparing you with the ex?

How to when he starts saying you are all just the same.. demanding and demanding only?

Sian. My happiness level is really dropping.

Maybe it's really better to be gf/bf than married. I'm seriously not getting the happiness of being married.

I don't care.

Communication is 2 way.

How to have a 2 way conversation when decisions are made one sided - leaving no room for discussions?

You can't blame me for keeping quiet if you've already made all the decisions ahead. What reaction do you want me to have when you already went ahead to buy a set of new wheels that cost a few k without discussing with me? On the other hand you have been telling me time and again how tight we are financially and how I shouldn't anyhow spend? Seriously what kind of reaction do you want me to give?

I'm tired. I hate feeling upset for not having respect shown. That's why I don't have any emotions anymore.

You can do whatever you want. I don't care and I don't want to care.

My new eyes

Been 2 weeks since my epi lasik surgery on 27th December. Not 100% perfect eyesight yet but I'm enjoying the freedom of no lenses and no glasses!

It's really wonderful being able to open my eyes to see the world clearly without scrambling for my glasses.

Really think this is a perfect Christmas gift to myself for 2012. :))

I'm glad I didn't chicken out and went for it!

Huat ah!!!

1st work day for 2013!

Took mc for yesterday as well so that my eyes are fully rested before I strain them by looking at the laptop again.

May this year be smooth sailing and may I get a pay raise and opportunities to travel!

HUAT AH!!!!!

2013

Can't explain exactly how I feel now.

Disappointed? Appalled? Sad? Speechless? Or simply resigned?

Time and again I tried to communicate with him but it really seems like the channel is either breaking down or we are getting out of tune.

Am I expecting too much? Maybe I really am. Maybe it's only fair that he gets to cycle as much as he wants on weekends since that's the only time he can do so. Maybe it's only fair that I do everything for Phoebe since she's my responsibility. Afterall we had her 'cause I wanted her. Right?
Maybe I should just resign to my fate and take it as he says. There's no room for negotiation anyway - he said so.

Oh well.

My resolution for 2013 - I'll be very very independent.

It's back...

Feeling frustrated.

The recent blood test results are out and it's what I fear - the thyroid is back.

Sigh.

Doc says to monitor for the next 3 months and to be back for another blood test again in March 2013. Hopefully by then it hasn't worsened and that it's just a false alarm.

Sigh.

Full blood count hasn't been good too.. the dizzy spells are really coming from the low hemoglobin levels. Time to start eating my beef and drinking my chicken essence again.

Sigh.